Demolition: The Beginning
Updated: Dec 9, 2019
Have you ever had the feeling that something is changing... A deep yearning in your soul where you feel pieces of what you thought was solid ground, a sturdy foundation, and it's about to break into pieces...
When you thought you were good at being a mom, that is where you found your worth. You wake up every day and you watch your kids walk out into the world, and they are amazing! Not perfect, but overall, they are incredible young women (or men).
They make good decisions, they are the ones caring for and lifting up other people. You delight in the person they have become, then one day you wake up, her alarm has been sounding for at least 10 minutes, as you approach the door.... there is a draft coming from their room you open the door, and she's run away. Even when she is home safe that morning you can't help but feel like the foundation of who you are is not enough.... it has been cracked.
Maybe it is your marriage? When you walk in one day and the man you have known for so many years has changed and you are no longer who he chooses... With that, a large chunk of you falls aside from the rest.
Or maybe, Your foundation has been built on your work? You get up every day you show up early, stay late, work all night whenever it's needed, to get caught up. You go above and beyond and no matter how hard you try, the voices of the"favored few", tell you, it's not enough. In meetings, your work is picked apart and even your coworkers walk out of the conversations feeling defeated. Your passion can only stand to take so much of a beating... if it even survives at all. Through it all, another crack grows.
It grows deep, a chasm of sorts where no patch or filler can keep the damage contained. Your best option is to excavate it all.
And every victory
Yes, even the good must be pulled to the surface, evaluated and dealt with accordingly.
These seismic shifts are where God has the opportunities to rebuild something greater but this process is far from painless.
It will take all the courage you can find!
This is a moment where you can no longer ignore that the original foundation, at the core it's faulty. Crumbling, because those foundation pieces were not intended to hold the weight of your life, and they have no ability to shift with the progression of your purpose. It is worth the fight and the struggle to wrestle with every piece. It is worth the sacrifice it will take to slow down and look at the reason for the cracks' formation.
This is worth it! You ARE worth it!
Let's start digging!
XO - B